Mental illness

I haven’t blogged about mental illness in a while. Some of you know that I was raised by a schizophrenic bipolar mother. I don’t share my stories for sympathy but to let others know that you are not alone. .I feel you. I understand. I held back from blogging so much about it because one people say don’t talk about your past and two I notice I still cringe every once in a while when I remember an experience. I don’t know if it’s ever possible to ever heal completely in this system. I had an amazing therapist but I couldn’t keep up with the $140 fee every two weeks. I went to her for 7 months and my thoughts and patterns started to change for the better…but ain’t no body got $140 for therapy when I have bills to pay😆 I want to bring awareness of what verbal abuse can do to someone. Verbal abuse is by far more psychological damaging than physical at least for me it is. When people are mentally ill they are more prone to demon control because they don’t have all their senses. They become a complete different person, monster like at times. From the time I could remember my mother would always tell me that I was too stupid and dumb to manage or handle money. She convinced me that only she could handle money. I started working since I was 10 or younger baby sitting kids…and haven’t stopped woring since. Being a workaholic is a form of PTS…it becomes your escape. The point I’m trying to make that her yelling and screaming that I was too stupid growing up has affected me to not make good choices with money. I’m pretty muched healed I don’t have anger or resentment towards my mother..I haven’t had a vacation in 30 years. I don’t have a pension, no retirement money, nothing…I’ve made so much money in my lifetime but don’t have anything to show for it except my new salon. I would make money and sabotage myself into spending it because I was brainwashed into thinking that I wasn’t worth keeping it and I would spend it. Something happened to me when I turned 50 last month. A light bulb came on!! I thought to myself in 10 years I’ll be 60!! I’m not a spring chicken!! I won’t able to work like a mule, something has to change!!! My friends, clients have been an amazing support system to push me to take vacations to change the way I speak. They catch me slipping and correct me when I start to talk negative and they tell me “Evy you can do it, take vacations”!! They buy me lunch, buy me vitamins, decorate my salon and genuinely care for me. I’m blogging about this here because I made it a point to not talk about my personal life with clients anymore. I’m working very hard at paying attention to what comes out of my mouth when I speak about myself, so far I notice changes❤ I started saving. I haven’t touched a dime from my savings. I’ve been watching youtube videos on marketing and networking by a friend of mine… Kristoffer Thompson..he takes his time to respond and answer my questions. I’m slowly erasing negative thoughts one day at a time. My health has improved since I started drinking alkaline water. ..I lost 4 pounds ❤😉👍❤ …I’m greatful to Jehovah for my friends at the kingdom hall, my doctors, my clients and wordpress. WordPress has become my therapeutic get away spot…It’s unfortunate that I was raised in a very dysfunctional home but it made me who I am today. I love people and SOME people love me😆 …..

As sick as my mother was she was still able to instill some morals in me as a child. Granted I went through a rebellious stage most of my life but I came back to my moral foundation that she taught me…. One day I’m going to blow up big, take vacations get my hair done by one of them expensive Instagram stylist and weigh 125 pounds. I got this, I know I can do it because I said I could ❤😎😉

Did I tell you about the time she jumped on top of the living room table and started jumping up and down screaming..out the top of her lungs? Thank goodness it was good hard wood. She didnt break it. …I’ll tell you that story another time..hehe..

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This is how I do hair..singing and dancing. 😂😂😂😂 #musicislife❤

Thanks for reading my rant earlier. I love you guys, until next time😘

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Same day blonding from black to blond today . It took me 5 hours. Drink alkaline water for good hair hydration, take vitamins and good quality hair products like Joico or It’s a Ten shampoo and conditioners. She wouldn’t allow me to give her a much needed trim. People dont realize that trims on damaged ends is needed. I can’t force I can only suggest. I enjoyed taking on this big task today. I used the mesh papers instead of foils to blond it out faster..I gave her foil highlites on the top of her crown area to give her contrast and demention. I want her to come back in two months so that l could perfect the color. It’s perfect for her. Her family and her love it I’m neurotica when it comes to my blonding sessions. I’m looking for a professional photographer I can barter with to take good pictures of my work. You must do good work but you must also give out a good presentation 😍

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Hair extensions by Da’ena..and hair extensions by me. Today we were hanging out in her room laughing and talking , another Sola member walks by and tells us to lower it and shuts Dae’nas Da’ena’s client was offended so was I. First of all the hair salon is not a mortuary or a library. It seems like this one particular person can’t stand to see us laughing singing or having fun. She’s like 5 doors down and didnt have a client at the time that we were talking. We weren’t that loud. That is the only issue we have here is that the older ones think this is a convalescent hospital. No, its hair studios. People talk, the hair dryer is on and clients talk to us. If you want dead silence you’re in the wrong buisness. Go trim flowers in a closet.

Education

You know what I love about being a stylist is that everyday I learn something new from my clients. I’ve been on a alkaline water and spinach kick for a month. I lost 4 pounds, my new adorable Persian doctor told me to loose weight and date younger guys. She said it’s good for my health 😅😅….anyways today I learned one secret for avoiding the flu. I learned that staying hydrated is good for avoiding the flu. I must say I did not get the flu this year winter since I switched to alkaline water. I also learned that eating too much vegatables in a unbalanced manner can cause you to get sick from all the metal in the ground. I learned that from my last client of the day today Maggie. We were having a conversation about Steve Jobs and She told me how he was a picky eater and only liked to eat salads….she believes he didn’t balanced meals and all that metal on the vegatables could of caused him to get cancer. That makes sense to me. But then sickness is caused from imperfection and so many other factors. For example stress. I’m sure he wad stressed with the whole McIntosh Appple drama he went through. Bottom line, live a balanced life with lots of laugh in the middle of each episode.😇🤗

Today’s lunch at work. My spinach salad creation. 💓💓💓